It's been a minute since I have felt the need to blog anything, as I have honestly just had a lack of inspiration this past year - as every artist, and person for that manner, goes through at some point in their development of work and creations of some sort. I began to think I was the only one with a lack of motivation for creativity in my path in journalism and in life, but the more I have opened up about it the more I have realized that I truly am not alone. It's just unfortunate that being in a community of about 30,000 other students, feeling alone is something that reigns so true for many alike individuals, and it's like pulling teeth to try and get the deep stuff out of people sometimes.
We get so caught up in the mundane of our daily lives, and I too am equally guilty of being too 'on to the next task' kind of person, as so many people are in our world today. We get one thing done and we move onto the next, just mindlessly going through the motions. But since suffering from so much unnecessary anxiety throughout college, this semester I have been trying to make an effort in taking time to learn more about what my mind is actually thinking and feeling, and not being so hard on myself. I have been learning a lot about a program by an incredible teacher, Joey Klein, and his work with Conscious Transformation that some friends and my brother have turned me onto. It is something that has been making life a little more manageable this semester and is this notion of striving towards thriving, rather than merely surviving - through programs in mastering the mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual states. My classes this semester have really been challenging my inner work and motivation for a betterment in my spirituality and clasp on my emotions - in which we all have, but I wonder why is it that people are so afraid to open up about their emotions? It's something that has really gotten to me this past year, and I'm not sure what pushed me to be open about it today, but I just feel this sense and desire for openness lately. I long for connection and the desire to have incredible relationships with others, but I also strive towards a power in knowing myself wholeheartedly and being the most inspirational person I can be, through my future journalistic career and in my own personal life as well. So how do we find that balance of interaction and inner reflection? I was challenged this week with the idea of community, and how we as moral beings are in nature 'social animals'. I have always thought that having a community has been something so incredibly valuable in life, as we can all help one another grow into the person we are meant to be. Granted why I joined a sorority, why I find so much value in family - no matter the disfunction behind it all - and the ongoing search for truly supportive friend dynamics. But I also have such a respect for people who can truly do things on their own, and be on their own, recognizing that personal growth is different for everyone but a completely vital aspect to contentment with oneself nonetheless. I'm not exactly sure my purpose of this today, but I just am longing for something in this incredible life and it has started with developing a vision for oneness within myself and with others. Stemming a lot off of that concept, but feeling a deep sense of connection that often can be forgotten in the hustle and bustle of this crazy life sometimes. Training for a half marathon, trying to make more of an effort for daily meditations, and being proactive in a way that attempts to eliminate anxiety of the future, are a few tactics I've been using - but sometimes it's just hard to find that inspiration and motivation. I have just noticed such a disconnect in our society lately, and I just feel like it's time we start lifting each other up rather than tearing each other down, getting off of our phones every once in a while and looking up, and sometimes talking about the uncomfortable - because that's where growth begins.
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